Archive for July, 2010

Or For Worse

July 14, 2010

Ed and I had a decidedly sick relationship.  In my last post I mentioned waiting for things to get better, and there was a time when things were good.  But when things got worse they were on a progressive downhill trend and it didn’t seem like they would ever make it back out.

During the last 6 months that we lived together Ed was rude, disruptive, hurtful, angry and out of control.  It was the worst six months I have ever lived through.  Ever.  In my life.  Ed lied about anything and everything.  He dropped out of college and declined to say anything about it for a few weeks.  He had cell phones and credit cards that he thought that he could hide.  He was flirting with strangers on the internet and trying to scam people left and right.  It was like he changed over night.  There were times before that had been bad.  We had struggled, I had cheated, he had lied.  But these times, these were like living with a stranger, like someone I had never known, never wanted to be with and couldn’t figure out or reason with.  It was almost as though he had changed his entire personality. 

Even though I had made a promise that I would stay for better or for worse I had to leave.


For Better

July 7, 2010

I didn’t go into my first marriage thinking it was going to all be some cake walk.  I knew that it would take work and I thought that we would be strong enough to survive the amount of work it would need. 

There was a commercial this week for the show “Glenn Martin DDS” (I admit I’ve never seen it) in which the wife and mother yells “I married you for better or for worse and I’m not giving up until I get the better.”  I often think that I waited too long for better.  Or maybe I got my better on the front end and it only got worse when I kept expecting the better to come.  What if all of Ed’s better is used up now?